Taylor,
I decided while
listening to your music through my IPOD as I usually do weekly that I am going
to blow the world up with good intentions for Jesus. I am so tired of settling
for less when I believe that in good due time God has so much in store for me,
for you, and all those living to serve others and do good for the sake of just
doing good. Just when you might have thought it could not get any bigger
with your music, with your writing, and with your fans, it does!
For me it is
extremely hard to stay focused on God when every time I swing to move forward I
feel that I strike out. I have explored more employment opportunities in the
past year than I care to count to only realize that individuals with less
experience, education, and qualifications than myself got the same opportunities
I pursued. While it should not, it rubs me the wrong way.
It might be
similar to people automatically assuming that everything with celebrity life is
absolutely amazing because of the simple reality of being known when that may
not necessarily be true. Life is not necessarily fulfilling for one person
because of a spotlight where more people want to know about their life.
I spoke with a
potential nonprofit employer today who focuses on the publishing industry with
Christian magazines for certain denominations and targeted faith groups who
mentioned that “nothing was wrong with my resume, qualifications, background,
or education but rather that I did not the exact right fit.” While the
conversation was insightful, it was certainly still not much more encouraging
because my circumstances remained the same – nothing changed with my current
occupational position in life.
That is often
frustrating when I see so many others around me flourishing with jobs doing
exactly what they want to do. Like I asked the HR Director today, “what can I
better do to make myself stand out?”
I often stand with
my arms in prayer wide open, asking God those same questions.
What I like about
country music is that it mirrors real life – the real struggles that most of us
face day in and day out with each day that passes.
I just know that I
am going to do my best to not give up, pushing forward to explore further
opportunities to become great pursuing a career that I am passionately and
deeply in love in, similar to the music that you write.
There are no
pictures today of pretty babies or your humorous story-telling You Tube
videos but instead just some of the mental struggles my analytical brains
continually faces every day.
If you ever read
these entries, thank you!
JLC iii
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